i didnt know his death would impact me like it has. its still so UNreal to me, as it is to many of his friends and family. I witnessed Justin taking his final breaths but i still cant grasp the fact that i wont see him for a while. its crazy..after that night, seeing "r.i.p" everywhere with his name attached, getting shirts made, having a dedication party in his name, and attending the funeral..i still can not believe he's gone. i cant cry about it anymore..im all cried out i think. a preacher told me at his gravesite.."u gotta live for him, because he cant live for himself now.." and i just couldnt believe he told me that. i immediately burst into tears..
we werent "close" but we called each other FAM ..and thats what it was regardless of if i hadnt heard from him or seen him around in years. i just wanna tell him that im sorry for not coming to visit him and hang out like he had been asking me to do..im sorry that sometimes he would text and i would forget to respond..im sorry that i didnt get to laugh with his goofy self again like we always did when we saw each other. i miss those old Young Mafia Days and Roxy teen nights lol..u got us in a whole lot of shit! hahaha..but it was so fun. oh yeah..i apologize for the incident at ur party thursday LOL..i just couldnt let that lil beetch disrespect you, so i did what YOU would have done if the tables were turned =]
i cant write anymore, if u could see me now u would make fun of me for these tears lol so im just gonna say..Rest peacefully Justin...watch over everyone that has been affected by ur passing! how they gon shoot with no TRiGGA? lol..i know they'll find some type of way..everyone loves and misses those eyebrows so much already! lol.. xoxo fam..
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