so FAR gone..or am i?

im feeling Drake of course. good friend of my favorite cousin...been following his work for awhile from when he was acting and not really doin music. he's cool..and he's real..and he's what the music industry has been missing/needing. so CONGRATS big homie..im sure the album will be crazier than the mixtape.

anyways..this isnt really about Drake tho...its about ME! lol..i have been feeling "so far gone" and not necessarily in a good way. this crazy beautiful life of mine is stressing me out. idk where to turn to..its like im suffocating in bullshit. im trying to figure out my purpose here on earth..what has God sent me here to do cuz it would be terrible for me to leave without fulfilling his wish! but if only i could get a clue, i could complete the task so much quicker. yeah...so ima pray about that.

the people that i deal with on a daily basis need some evaluation also...my immediate friends are cool, love 'em to death...so i guess this is just referring to the males in my life. i have tried, and tried and cried and cried..but every relationship ends the same. yeah i have some trust issues but shit who can blame me?! the males in my life arent good examples at all..so it is what it is.

i have some more to get off my chest..but im kinda at school in the library lol =]

......to be continued!

the 51st Annual Grammy Awards--thru the eyes of [kee].

..so they Grammy's took place a view days ago...somethings i loved other things i was slightly confused/annoyed/baffled/unentertained by lol...

--thanks to theybf.com for pics =] i love yall!

Janelle Monae..in her usual black/white. but its cute! she's a beast..check her music out!

Houston's own..Letoya Luckett looked very pretty in pink and mulit-colored snake skin clutch. BUT she set it off with her shoe choice..damn her for those fabulous powder blue Louboutin's!!

Vanessa & Angela Simmons..looked young and fabulous.

another Houston native..Solange Knowles stepped out in a mini dress with some pretty fab shoes and mini purse lol..she kicked it nect to her brother-in-law Mr. Jigga Man =]

..speaking of Mr. Carter, him and the other Mr. Carter [lil wayne], T.I., and the ever so swagged out Kanye aka "the RAP pack"... k i l l e d "swagger like us" indeed.

..with a 40 weeks pregnant M.i.A! lol..idk what that outfit was..but she get major points for performing ON her due date...seriously!

&& this was her red carpet get-up! lmfao...dont try this at home preggo ladies...PLEASE! she looks like she's about to pop...literally.

TiP brought wifey, Tiny, along..he looked handsome && she worked a sequined out Herve Leger dress thats pretty hot!

..&& apparently..Lil Wayne brought "wifey" Nivea out too! lol..wow. idk what to say about this one..but i guess it is what it is =]

i love Anthony Hamilton and all...BUT him and the wifey should have given this "wild safari" look another try! she wore leopard while he wore tiger print and 2-toned leopard TOGETHER! uhmm yeah...no bueno. still love ya music tho Anthony =]

..ugh. i have some homework to do..so thats all for now! stay tuned tho lol

in LOViNG memory...

i didnt know his death would impact me like it has. its still so UNreal to me, as it is to many of his friends and family. I witnessed Justin taking his final breaths but i still cant grasp the fact that i wont see him for a while. its crazy..after that night, seeing "r.i.p" everywhere with his name attached, getting shirts made, having a dedication party in his name, and attending the funeral..i still can not believe he's gone. i cant cry about it anymore..im all cried out i think. a preacher told me at his gravesite.."u gotta live for him, because he cant live for himself now.." and i just couldnt believe he told me that. i immediately burst into tears..

we werent "close" but we called each other FAM ..and thats what it was regardless of if i hadnt heard from him or seen him around in years. i just wanna tell him that im sorry for not coming to visit him and hang out like he had been asking me to do..im sorry that sometimes he would text and i would forget to respond..im sorry that i didnt get to laugh with his goofy self again like we always did when we saw each other. i miss those old Young Mafia Days and Roxy teen nights lol..u got us in a whole lot of shit! hahaha..but it was so fun. oh yeah..i apologize for the incident at ur party thursday LOL..i just couldnt let that lil beetch disrespect you, so i did what YOU would have done if the tables were turned =]

i cant write anymore, if u could see me now u would make fun of me for these tears lol so im just gonna say..Rest peacefully Justin...watch over everyone that has been affected by ur passing! how they gon shoot with no TRiGGA? lol..i know they'll find some type of way..everyone loves and misses those eyebrows so much already! lol.. xoxo fam..

Please FORGiVE me!

..soo yeah i've kinda been "unfaithful" to this blog business..i do apologize! i noticed that i have some new followers..thanks to you all && i hope yall enjoy =].


a lot has happened since my last posting, good and bad..&& i will make sure to share all of those details very soon!

this is just an apology post lol...the new postings will be up this week hopefully...between planning a baby shower, school, social life and just BULLSHiT i seem to have very little time. so be on the look out cuz i will be sharing the new happening of my life asap.

yall have fun, be safe and most importantly..be BLESSED.