YouTube: Broadcast Yourself

Ok, so im such a youtube FANatic lol its kinda weird..some look at funny stuff, some look at politicial stuff, some listen to music leaks, some look at fights..lol i can go on and on..but when im on YouTube 9 times out of 10, im looking at videos posted by unsigned talented artist. I have viewed countless videos, some that gave me goose bumps bcuz they were so gr8 and some so horrible that i couldnt believe they actually post their "talent" for the world lol.


..sooo i will try to post some of the videos that i come across that are from talented young people that i would sign if i was a record label exec. =] i will post some of the videos i have favorited now...&& believe me, there is MORE to come!

Leah Labelle: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LybbGPcyCbg

Priscilla Renae: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJV9XPsfJ88

..check those out for right now! i have SOOOO MANY MORE!!! =]

Something New...

im goin to be starting a new series of postings entitled: murder SHE wrote. each posting will be about something that is currently bothering me in connection with personal issues, relationships, friends, the nightlife, the city, the government, money, clothes, hair...lol you get the picture [hopefully].


the 1st posting is already posted below this one. i completed that 1st before i got the idea to just start posting all blogs about my personal life issues, with the same title..but maybe different subtitle. anyways..i hope you enjoy! leave comments PLEASE and if u have suggestions/questions or whatever leave that in the comments too!

murder SHE wrote: [complexed simplicity]

something is different today. idk what it is or why it is..i just know that it is. && i think its bothering me..but not necessarily in a bad way, just in an aggravating/confused way. anyone who has dealt with me..knows that im kinda complexed, in the simplest way tho =] ..thanks to Teedra Moses (google or youtube her) she has a song thats kinda old but its called: "Complexed Simplicity" ..but anyways..i guess im just having one of those complexed, simple days..so how else would i relieve this but to blog about it lol..

ok,im goin in...



i have an ex-boyfriend..that just wont seem to go away lol. maybe becuz a part of me doesnt want him =/ or maybe bcuz he is something like a houston socialite =/. i must admit..there are still feelings attached, ONLY bcuz the break up is so recent. I have drilled it thru my head that i will [[ not ]] give in to his foolish shenanigans nor will i get caught up in his crazy "web of love." ugh..its hard, to say the least. im doing good tho...its just the constant text msgs from him, the fact that ppl who knew about us seem to always ask me about him or bring him up, && the wonderful world of MYSPACE..keep reminding me that he still exists! sooo..yeah, thats pretty much bothering the hell outta me right now, cuz in a weird way..i kinda miss the idiot =/ but i wouldnt wanna be with him like that again. lesson learned. my goal is to turn the table on him, have HiM like he >had< [me]..&& to let him fall flat on his face when he falls so that he can understand the feeling..i've been kinda successful thus far, eventho its hard. I can not and will not let him see me sweat!..pray for me lol, no seriously. thanks.


another thing thats been on my mind is the person that im kinda "dating" at the moment. he's cool, we've been friends for a while now..we have fun together and enjoy each others company regardless of what it may be...but NO strings are supposed to be attached. WOW! this is a first for me..im such the relationship type of person that if i wasnt the "official girl" i wouldnt have anything to do with you..but im getting older, learning more about myself, males and females and the relationshops between the two. so i gave it a shot..&& i must admit that it has been cool. its really not much of a difference, there's just no title for us. uhmm..but there's one small dilemma...i kinda get a tad bit jealous when he talks to other girls or even interacts with them period..dammit! yeah i know im trippin, but the good thing is HE doesnt know that i trip =]. we have an agreement && most importantly an understanding..&& for the most part, i cant complain about it and im happy..so i wont address this issue with him i guess, i'll just keep giving these chicks the infamous *side eye* && dare one of them to say anything, which would give me a reason to do what i wanna do to them anyways..lol..ugh! like i said, pray for me =].

[O]h HAPPY day!

wow! im so overwhelmed with great joy && emotion. "today is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice && be glad in it.." && i am undoubtfully rejoicing and glad becuz today is the day that Barack H. Obama has become our 44th president, but the [1st] BLACK president of America. i cant even believe that i am able to type that in the same sentence! lol..its so amazing. im so far from the "politcal" person, in fact..im so liberal its almost shameful lol..but Mr. Obama has made me feel some type of way today..i have heard all my life, "you can be anything u wanna be and do anything u wanna do, if u put ur mind to it..!" well, NOW i actually believe and have witnessed that this statement is true. My mother && grandfather..and many of my other family members actually attended the inauguration [yeah, they think they tight cuz they had tickets..whatever lol] and many of the other events that have taken place this week in D.C..so they have been keeping me posted on the celebrity sitings and events and all the great things. They have said its remarkable how many ppl are there, and how much happiness and peace there is in the air.

i woke up this morning, a changed young lady. i cant explain the feeling..i woke up and i happily went to class with a smile on my face for the first time in a while..&& to see many of my peers so infactuated with the inauguration process was completely unexpected. although i did hear one upset/angry statement from one of my classmates today about Barack becoming our president, i felt no harm was done becuz there is absolutely NOTHiNG they can so about it =] [[ our ]] president is black lol..get with it, or get rolled over by his $300,000 cadillac! haha.

ahhh..its such a beautiful feeling lol..&& he did it with such grace && style, of course! Ms. Michelle brought the fierceness too, with her yellow gold and green ensemble...&& who can forget the lil misses: Sasha and Malia...so cute in their J. Crew coats and scarves! I am happy, proud, honored, elated, blessed, hopeful and encouraged. So if Mr. Obama doesn't make any changes at all [which i HiGHLY doubt], he has allowed me and many other young minorities to see that nothing is impossible, && thats enuff change in itself. iLy Obama♥.

--my GRiPPER.

..soo there's this guy && he has my ♥. they say "home is where the heart is.." well my heart is being held hostage by Ellis Gripper in Atlanta.


this year and a half hasn't been the best for us..we've had some major bumps in the road..but fortunately, no love has been lost..only built stronger. he has a beautiful 1 yr old daughter that i havent been around but i look at pictures of her and i feel so much love for her bcuz shes such a huge reflection of him. && i must admit, he played a major part in me making the drastic decision to leave atlanta and move back to houston. as crazy as it sounds, i felt like leaving atlanta meant leaving and forgetting about him. but that was NOT the case. there is not a day that doesnt go by that i dont think about him. its just something that is so genuine and so deep about our relationship..i cant let go of. I have cried so many tears, some drunken lol, but at the end of the day..nobody compares to him. he's funny, loving, charming, romantic, talented, strong, and most importantly he sincerely LOVES me.


..i love him too. yes i have kinda "moved on" in the sense that i have had other relationships, but if he told me that he wanted to be with me right this second..there's no question what the response would be..an overly happy: YES! i would happily pack my shit up and move right back to atlanta just to be with him..in fact, that would be a dream come true. if he asked me to marry him today..i would be planning our wedding tomorrow lol..


i just want him to know that he hasnt been replaced nor forgotten. He is still very much apart of my life eventho we are hundreds of miles apart.."absence makes the heart grow fonder"..well im quite FOND of him lol && i know now more than ever that the bond that we share is authentic. he'll forever be MY [y]oung [m]oney [g]ripper =]

FAB 5--the Houston nightlife KinGS

in case you have been living under a rock or something..there are 5 young mean that have been CRASHiNG the 18+ club scene in Houston!! they go by the name FAB 5..and they along with Young Torin have been giving Houston's young adults places to party hard for a few years now!

im not trying to show any favoritism or anything..but they also just so happen to be some of my [closest] friends!! i love them dearly && you can bet you last dollar that i support and try to attend EVERYthing that they put their hands on...bcuz i know that it will definitely be poppin!!

..they have given the city: Fly as FcuK @ Toc Bar, Fridays @ Grasshopper, Swagger Fridays @ The Vault, Fridays @ Club Scene, the infamous,..guaranteed to be packed to capacity..newly renovated Essential Saturdays @ Club Next, and their newest venture..Famed Fridays @ The Office...and [many] more, but who can keep up with a roster like that? lol..obviously not too many promoters in the Houston area can get on their level when it comes to this promoting game..or money =] if you have ever attended any of their parties, you already know what im talkin about!

a brief description of the Fab 5-- the group is composed of 3 independent promoting groups that have come together to form a super group! LayBo & Jay, from St. Louis, are from City2City Ent....PJ Carson & Dreno, from Houston and Galveston, are YungFresh2Def..and last but not least, Khalil, from Galveston, of C.O.E.

Anyways..these are MY nigguhs..i love them, i support them, they are great at what they do and they are most definitely FAB in my eyes! Be on the look out for bigger and better events, listen out for the Essential Saturday commercial on 97.9 and BET...&& if you're looking to fing ME in the streets...no need to ask, im probably wherever they are =]

FiLA: forever i love atlanta.

as soon as i graduated from high school in Houston, i moved to Atlanta...aka Black Hollywood, The South's Hollywood..or just plain ol' Atl , shawty =]

..i was [loving] life there, i had a few obstacles but it was my 1st time being on my own, and having real responsibilities, etc and please let's NOT forget that i was only 18! I was there for 2 whole years, with few and far in between visits home to Houston, when i kinda starting feeling the whole homesick movement and made the drastic decision to move back to Houston!

sooo yeah, thats pretty much where i stand right now..Home, missing my friends and my "other life" in Atlanta, Ga. I miss everything about it..from the dudes tryna holla, finishing their statements with "shawty"...my wonderful and crazy friends that i made along the journey lol and also how independent i saw myself becoming. But now, im back at home..in Houston, Tx...where im spoiled and losing all motivation sadly, im at a school that i highly dislike, && the weekends are sooo damn predictable: Tuesdays @ Swivel, Fridays on Main Street, Saturdays @ Club Next or downtown, and Sundays are the chill days =/ && this pattern pretty much goes for EVERYONE 18+ who lives in Houston or surrounding areas...seriously. I even go to clubs where some of my mother's friends are partying...wow! not cool at all.

with all of this being said..i told my mom a week ago that i want to move back to Atlanta..she was shocked and really didnt give a definite answer but Lord knows how much i wish she would just say "ok, thats fine! when?" lol..a girl can dream cant she? anyways..i'll be back soon enuff...&& im definitely goin to visit sooner than later =]

N0T0Ri0US: no dream is to B.i.G--

soo..like the rest of the world, i went to go see the highly anticipated movie Notorious. I have been anticipating this movie myself actually, becuz i am soo into music and the industry, especially hip hop..and for Big's life story to be told on the big screen..it was definitely exciting.

On March 9, 1997..the day of Big's death..i was only 7 years old and from the west coast but i felt how much of an impact he had on the music industry and in the hood. Seeing this movie 12 yrs later brought back the same feeling i had then. Im not the "cry over a movie" type, but if I was, i would have shed a few tears just becuz of the overwhelming impact that he had on his hood and the industry and also becuz he was taken away just when he was starting to overcome his lifes obstacles and becoming the person he had always wanted to be personally and to the world.

Jamal "Gravy" Woolard played Christopher Wallace very well..along with Angela Basset [Voletta Wallace], a resembling Antonique Smith [Faith Evans], && Naturi Naughton, formerly of the girl group 3LW, as the ever so scandalous sex kitten Lil Kim! eventho i didnt quite agree with the character nor the actor chosen to portray the late, great Tupac Shakur...he got the story across nonetheless.

I could actually go ALL day blogging about this movie lol..it was great and i will be goin to see it again with some friends who havent seen it yet...plus i have to view it a 2nd time for more understanding. So if you have NOT seen the movie, please go and do urself the favor and go see what the hip hop community has lost to senseless violence and go be motivated...cuz like Big & Puff use to say "we can't change the W0RLD, unless we change 0URSELVES!"

theybf.com = PURE hotness!

I am a MAJOR fan of The Young, Black and Fabulous blog!!

..i go on there EVERYday && if im too busy and i miss a day i almost go crazy lol

they always have the the most accurate and breaking news, great fashion and music and exclusive pics of the hottest celebs!

They have also inspired me to do this blogging thing also =] soo HUGE shouts out to the people over at theybf.com...keep up the FANTASTiC work! i'll be reading && so should YOU!

--the [kEE] to they city.

w0W! im officially a [[ blogger ]] lol i have been waiting sooo long to get this up and running...i've had this account for so long and now i have gotten the courage to finally start making posts! so YAY for me =]

i feel like 2009= KEE time && im so ready for all of that is in store for me this year && for years to come. I am a college student..who deeply misses ATLANTA but is back at home in H0UST0N..

this blog will mainly cover the following subjects thru MY eyes: entertainment, celebrities, love, life, sex, my life in Houston, Tx and some of my fantastic friends and associates, my crazy BIG family && some other [ random ] things..lol

so be on the look out for more posts && bear with me as i get the hang of this blogging thing! =]

*besos.