something is different today. idk what it is or why it is..i just know that it is. && i think its bothering me..but not necessarily in a bad way, just in an aggravating/confused way. anyone who has dealt with me..knows that im kinda complexed, in the simplest way tho =] ..thanks to Teedra Moses (google or youtube her) she has a song thats kinda old but its called: "Complexed Simplicity" ..but anyways..i guess im just having one of those complexed, simple days..so how else would i relieve this but to blog about it lol..
ok,im goin in...
i have an ex-boyfriend..that just wont seem to go away lol. maybe becuz a part of me doesnt want him =/ or maybe bcuz he is something like a houston socialite =/. i must admit..there are still feelings attached, ONLY bcuz the break up is so recent. I have drilled it thru my head that i will [[ not ]] give in to his foolish shenanigans nor will i get caught up in his crazy "web of love." ugh..its hard, to say the least. im doing good tho...its just the constant text msgs from him, the fact that ppl who knew about us seem to always ask me about him or bring him up, && the wonderful world of MYSPACE..keep reminding me that he still exists! sooo..yeah, thats pretty much bothering the hell outta me right now, cuz in a weird way..i kinda miss the idiot =/ but i wouldnt wanna be with him like that again. lesson learned. my goal is to turn the table on him, have HiM like he >had< [me]..&& to let him fall flat on his face when he falls so that he can understand the feeling..i've been kinda successful thus far, eventho its hard. I can not and will not let him see me sweat!..pray for me lol, no seriously. thanks.
another thing thats been on my mind is the person that im kinda "dating" at the moment. he's cool, we've been friends for a while now..we have fun together and enjoy each others company regardless of what it may be...but NO strings are supposed to be attached. WOW! this is a first for me..im such the relationship type of person that if i wasnt the "official girl" i wouldnt have anything to do with you..but im getting older, learning more about myself, males and females and the relationshops between the two. so i gave it a shot..&& i must admit that it has been cool. its really not much of a difference, there's just no title for us. uhmm..but there's one small dilemma...i kinda get a tad bit jealous when he talks to other girls or even interacts with them period..dammit! yeah i know im trippin, but the good thing is HE doesnt know that i trip =]. we have an agreement && most importantly an understanding..&& for the most part, i cant complain about it and im happy..so i wont address this issue with him i guess, i'll just keep giving these chicks the infamous *side eye* && dare one of them to say anything, which would give me a reason to do what i wanna do to them anyways..lol..ugh! like i said, pray for me =].
i have an ex-boyfriend..that just wont seem to go away lol. maybe becuz a part of me doesnt want him =/ or maybe bcuz he is something like a houston socialite =/. i must admit..there are still feelings attached, ONLY bcuz the break up is so recent. I have drilled it thru my head that i will [[ not ]] give in to his foolish shenanigans nor will i get caught up in his crazy "web of love." ugh..its hard, to say the least. im doing good tho...its just the constant text msgs from him, the fact that ppl who knew about us seem to always ask me about him or bring him up, && the wonderful world of MYSPACE..keep reminding me that he still exists! sooo..yeah, thats pretty much bothering the hell outta me right now, cuz in a weird way..i kinda miss the idiot =/ but i wouldnt wanna be with him like that again. lesson learned. my goal is to turn the table on him, have HiM like he >had< [me]..&& to let him fall flat on his face when he falls so that he can understand the feeling..i've been kinda successful thus far, eventho its hard. I can not and will not let him see me sweat!..pray for me lol, no seriously. thanks.
another thing thats been on my mind is the person that im kinda "dating" at the moment. he's cool, we've been friends for a while now..we have fun together and enjoy each others company regardless of what it may be...but NO strings are supposed to be attached. WOW! this is a first for me..im such the relationship type of person that if i wasnt the "official girl" i wouldnt have anything to do with you..but im getting older, learning more about myself, males and females and the relationshops between the two. so i gave it a shot..&& i must admit that it has been cool. its really not much of a difference, there's just no title for us. uhmm..but there's one small dilemma...i kinda get a tad bit jealous when he talks to other girls or even interacts with them period..dammit! yeah i know im trippin, but the good thing is HE doesnt know that i trip =]. we have an agreement && most importantly an understanding..&& for the most part, i cant complain about it and im happy..so i wont address this issue with him i guess, i'll just keep giving these chicks the infamous *side eye* && dare one of them to say anything, which would give me a reason to do what i wanna do to them anyways..lol..ugh! like i said, pray for me =].
ah man
ReplyDeletewhy do we go thru
the samethings at the sametime
what always works is turnin the tables
thats what i am in the process of doin